see-saw see-saw

a multitude of feelings
like a see-saw.
the intense high you give
like the top of the monkey bars.
of the instant depression
like a slide.
trickle of undecisiveness
like the swings.

you give me the same feeling.
that lasting never-will-leave feeling.
and it scares the guts out of me.
am i too late?
will i be too late?
when will the time be right?

ANSWER ME.
i demand of you.
TELL ME.
i beg this of you.
TAKE PITY
and grant me this peace.

crush!
on you.

look!
upon me.

tell you to fishball off.

it was a joy.
hugs aplenty,
will it last?

l e a v e
m
e
a l o n e

l
o
v
e
s u c k s
dont pull me into this.
its your problem, not mine.
-
the same making.
the same feeling.
the same mistake.
why me?
there's a name,
for people like that.
is, idiots.

master of the language.
congratulations!
-
seventeen is special.
congratulations!
-

hypocrite!
hypocrite!
let go, i say.
but my own advice?
heed it, not i.

jump off a building,
fall onto my heart.
watch as it shatters,
and laugh as you die.

you give me that high.
and make me so damn happy.
lets hope it lasts.

its raining on my parade,
of hopes.
of dreams.

you give me that same high.
and im scared.

did you believe?
i did.
did you trust?
i did.
did you expect?
i did.

and now im left with nothing.

the boat's shaking.
capsize!
why not?

obtuse innuendo.
yea right.
its obvious.

1826, 2618.
you're with him.
right? dont lie.

dont know why,
but it still affects me.

wtf?

- dont hold on.
just go ahead.
i want you happy.

to say the least.
or the most.
dont abandon me. hope didnt fail me this once.

take care and get well soon!

-sandra+